Mola Mola – Re:Mind Studio

The Era of the Command: “Stay Still” When I was a child, my father always said to me: “Stop acting so restless and just stay still.” There was more to that phrase than simple discipline. It meant that my father desired an order he could control. A child’s curiosity, emotions, and movements shattered that order.…

The Temperature of the Phrase “Let’s Have a Drink” My father said it again. “Let’s have a beer together. Let’s hang out for the first time in a while.” The words seem ordinary. But the moment I hear them, my body tenses up as if an old alarm has started ringing again. To me, the…

“Men Don’t Cry” I’ve heard it since I was a child. “Men don’t cry,” “Men must endure,” “Men must be strong.” Within those words lay a single command: Do not feel. If an emotion was felt, it was treated as evidence of weakness. And so, I gradually learned the “art of erasing” my emotions. I…

I Want to Be Okay, But I’m Afraid My Healing Will Comfort Him Lately, I find myself thinking often: “I want to be okay now.” But simultaneously, another thought creeps in: “If I get better, my father might find comfort in that.” When that happens, I am seized by a strange sensation. I hate that…

“You Used to Be So Bright When You Were Little” My father said those words often. “You were so bright when you were a child; why have you changed so much?” Those words always felt surreal. As far as I can remember, I was never “bright” around him. I was always reading his cues, tensing…